overwhelmed. everything falls through my pores, fingers, taste buds. i struggle to block it but it keeps on flowing. ferociously flowing while tying my hands up keeping my mouth open to shout shout shout.
whatever i hate, i do. whatever i do for hatred from you. i hurt i stab i push you away to the corner and push you again. hate me hate me. whatever i hate, i do. whatever i love, i break.
why don’t you hit me why don’t you shout back and insult me unleash the beast inside me, to kill me. let me show you how much you should hate me and despise me and ditch me. i want to see you throw my stuff away and shout go away.
overwhelmed. erupting lava, ashes, bitterness, poison, thoughts of throwing myself to the moving traffic. inside me i shriek unheard plea. stop me stop me slap me then hold me tight. sweep my tears away with your hand your hand you know how much your hands always calm me down. i am shouting at you telling you to forgive me and continue to love me but the darkness is too overwhelming it’s gagging my mouth.
overwhelmed. and the control is given back, only when the damage is done. head’s beaten. heart’s ripped. what’s left is regret.
